Danelle Lim Yun
Danelle - Pronounced as De (as in Der)-Nell [Meaning: God is my Judge]
Lim - Just as simple as that, no explanation needed
Yun- Pronounced as the word 昀 in the Chinese language [Meaning: Cloud]
For simplicity, just call me Danelle, Lim Yun, Yun, Lim or any other combination you can come up with her name
03011996
Christian(and puts God above all things)
Currently a student of
Gongshang Primary;Cedar Girls Secondary
Class:
6.8;
1H;2H
A member of
TWISTERS;POG
A PRAISE Dancer
Left-handed
Random
The loves:
GOD!!!!!!!
Friends
Music(Piano, Singing, Dancing, Guitar)
Children
Animals
Movies(& popcorn!!!)
Cooking
Food(Italian, Jap, Cheese, Seafood)
Shopping
The hates
Bugs(eugh!!!!Who likes them?)
Blueberries
Strawberries
Raisins
Creamy Cakes
Goodbye, and hello to a new day.
I guess God is really great. How he used Miriam to prevent Moses from being killed, how that boy with only five loaves and two fishes to feed the 5000. God can use us, it's only a matter of whether we're willing. If kids younger than us could be used to serve God at such a tender young age, what about teens like us?
We can't say there's nothing BIG enough for us to do because every little thing counts. Don't belittle actions like giving out tracts or just street evangelizing. Don't say, we can't get many Christians that way, people won't listen to us. Maybe people won't accept Christ just like that, but our aim is NOT to make people Christians with our own effort. It's to sow the seeds. God will do the rest.
Friends who stubbornly stick to their own beliefs? Don't ever say it's impossible to bring them to Christ. Keep praying, no matter WHAT. You have to KEEP TRYING.
So don't say God can't use you. He can, and he will.
I mean, look at the workload that school piles on us, they actually think we can cope? We go all over the place filming and interviewing hawkers, I'd rather take tests than do all that. It's just dumb and wastes time.
So do they still expect us to be not drained? We have tuition and other programmes as well.
When I saw that question, I just wanted to laugh. At their stupidity.
Red was the colour of the blood that came rushing to my face when Amelia hit me on the cheek. Red was the colour of my eyes that were once brimming with tears, now all puffy and swollen. Red was the colour of my blood, angry that I wasn't treated with respect. Red was the colour of my nose, all exhausted from sniffing and crying. Red was the colour of the blood that was once running through my veins, flowing down my fingers.
Red, red, red. I don't really feel like saying much on my blog about today. But I think you'll would kind of get the picture.
Anyways, today, me & Stella almost died. Because our partners came today(unfortunately for us). For those who don't understand, in a certain part of the dance, we have to do partner work and the guys have to lift the girls. So yeah. Stella's partner was Kenneth and when he lifted her, she was screaming. A bit funny, haha.
My partner is Lester. I was like kinda freaked when we were doing the lifts. I mean, who wouldn't be scared of falling? Then Steph & Jolene asked us to show them a couple of times cos we didn't do partner work the previous practice. Then he was complaining that we did like 2 or 3 times already.
After dance, rushed to meet Ame,Pam & Joce. We had to do like 2 projects in one day. After we did our Home Economics project, Umairah called to say that we couldn't go her house to do the English project. So in the end, I asked Rae for help. Thank goodness she was willing to help, love her SOOOOOOOOO much!!!!!!!!!
Then, we finally went our separate ways. I'm SOOOOOOOOOo drained now. Ok, well, have to complete homework now.
There's school tomorrow!!!! Yawnz.
Actually, not yawn, more like AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
I've got SOOOOOOOOOOOOO many projects going on. School is practically draining us. We've got CCA, common tests, and they give us projects. What's worse is that those projects aren't the kinds you can do over the computer or discuss over MSN. You have to take lots of time to do video-ing at places outside school!!!!!!
They said that they've spread everything out so we won't be so stressed, but it seems worse than last year. I mean seriously!!!! And then I've got to think about CIP, O levels. I mean, at Sec1, we get stressed about O levels and JCs. Ok, maybe it's only me, but it's really horrible.
Maybe I should start considering IP program @ VJC. I can't take the stress anymore. If I went to VJC, then I could still take O levels, but without the stress from CIP, LEAP points, CCA commitments, Higher Mother Tongue. Then maybe life would be much better. But I don't know. Am I really willing to take that leap of faith, get to a new school, not knowing if it's gonna get any better? If I go, I won't have any assurance that life will get better. It may not get any better than how it is now. But what if it does and I lose that opportunity? What if I take that chance and it gets worse?
I'm just scared change. I'm too scared. I had a bad experience with change last year when I came to Cedar. I've adapted already, thank God. But I don't want it to be deja vu all over again.
I don't know, I guess I'll leave it all in God's hands.
Then, had to study. And now, I can proudly say I've finished my maths revision worksheet!!!!! Now I'm only left with 1 1/2 history essays.
Went to grandma's house for dinner and then I came back. Gonna be leading worship with Abby on Sunday. I don't really know what to do, a little nervous. I don't wanna screw anything up.
Went to my grandma's house in the morning. Got lots of ang bao!!!!!!!! And ate abalone mee sua!!!!!! :D:D
After lunch, went to my grandaunt's place. My baby cousin Ashley was there. She was SOOOOOOOOOO cute. But she kept crying. It was only like when we were gonna leave soon she suddenly went high, like sugar high. She was laughing away. Babies are cute, and weird all at the same time. Haha. Gonna see her tomorrow too, can't wait!!!!
In the afternoon, my cousins came over. It was kinda weird. We didn't really talk THAT much like last time and time seemed to pass so slowly. I don't know, but it seems like we're drifting away. I guess those games we played in the past and the fun we had suddenly became just a thing of the past. No longer how it is now.
I don't know, it's CNY and we should all be in a jovial mood. But things have changed. I guess I've said that line so many times. I just keep wallowing in the past. Maybe the past seems like the best days of my life. But what can I do? I can't stop the clock from ticking, and neither can I stop the sun from setting at the end of each and every day.
After that, went home, did homework and study.
Then Ame saw something in Isetan she'd consider. Then we went Giordano. And she bought a red top. She told me that every CNY, somehow she'd always buy 1 red top, and the other top would be a different colour. Weird, but true.
Then we headed back to T1 we went to, to get a grey cardigan to go with my smock tube. That shop that sells the cardigans is just SOOOOOOOO nice. If you're looking for cardigans, go to Cotton Candy. Yes, Cotton Candy, not Cotton On. Cotton Candy has like so many different varieties of cardigans and so many nice colours, and the prices range from around 10 to 20 bucks!!!!!!!!!
Then Ame tried this navy blue & white hoodie at Hang Ten. Then she decided to go back and buy that top in Isetan. We had to walk ALL the way back there. My feet were like forming blisters(I should have known better than to wear my new flats).
After that, we could FINALLY call it a day.
Wait, then I had to try guide her to CK on the phone.
Ok, then the day finally ends. It was great, and the moral of the story? Never wear new shoes when shopping. Especially when you're not wearing socks with them.
I'm sick of pretending that it's totally alright. I'm sick of being in friendship where I'm not considered in, I'm just considered an extra. If you say the friendship is between the 3 of us, well, I feel like the friendship is just between the two of you. Don't drag me in to make me feel horrible.
What happened the last time we got into a big quarrel? Oh yeah, you stole all my friends that I grew up with, leaving me all alone. And how did we get back together? I remember, I almost tried to _ _ _ _ myself before you went, "Sorry, ok? We'll be friends again."
This time, I'm not gonna be so emotionally desperate to start crying and trying to _ _ _ _ myself again. I'm not, cos I don't need your pity on me anymore. Stop the pretence of, "3 of us will me BFFs" cos well, I want out. I want out of this friendship totally.
TOTALLY.
Anyways, since life seems to be getting boring, won't be blogging much for the time being. I'm currently more focused on my blogshop. Do visit if you can!!!!! http://www.sweethotcool.blogspot.com/
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Sunday
MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!Haha!!!! Went for regional cell, whatever that means. Played wacko. It was really crazy!!!!Haha. Actually, everytime you play wacko, wherever you are, it's always crazy.
After that, we split up into our cells. So Van, Claire, Sam, Xin Een & I went to POG. Ohohoh and David too. But he's the only guy,haha. Then we did brief introductions and I accidently told them it was my birthday today.(I should have shut my big fat mouth!!!) Cos they all started singing Happy Birthday. I was like quite embarrased cos these two guys called Elon and Jun Kiat were singing enthusiastically, like little kids. Which makes me wonder if they were mocking me.
Anyways, after cell, went for service. After service, went out to Mos Burger for lunch with Van, Claire, Sam, Cassia, Cheryl, Jess and Anne. It was a pity Charis couldn't come. We had a great time! Of course, I had to keep reminding them to keep the noise level down. I felt like a teacher but if they had talked really loudly, people would stare at us. And I'd feel even weirder.
After lunch, went to Coffee Bean. I seriously LOVE that place!!!!! We went outside to sit and then we bought drinks. Van & Claire surprised me with a cake that my mum told them to get!!!!! I was so surprised!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't believe my mum would do that. It was so sweet of her!!!OHOHOH!!!!The cake was durian flavour. My fave!!!!!!!!
Anyways, we play truth or dare and for one of my dares, I had to drink some vile concoction Van, Claire & Sam made up which consisted of water, syrup, cinnamon, chocolate powder, sugar, pepper and salt!!!!!!!!! It was really gross. So I was supposed to drink it while they sang happy birthday and they gave it a big finish but singing YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyways, went to my grandma's place after that. Had crabs for dinner!!!!!!!!Yum yum!!!!!
Monday
Went back to school. But I can't exactly say back cos we went to the old campus. Which was newly built. So do I say Old Cedar or new Cedar?
Anyways, I met a couple of my teachers. My form teacher is Ms Yvette Chua!!!!!!!!!!!!! She was my Home Econs teacher last year and she'll still be this year. Yayy!!!!!!! I didn't pass the HCL test. But I'm fine with it :D :D!!!!! So I had History lesson, English lesson and Science. My teachers for those subjects are Mr Chai, Ms Fernandez & Mr Leng respectively.
Went for band, so yeah. It was a little boring.
OHOHOH!!!!!I forgot to mention that we have a new classmate, Melissa from Malaysia. She's really nice and we sit together with Priya as well.
Tuesday
2nd day of school. Met my maths teacher, Mr Aiman*screams in horror*!!!!According to my friends who were from his class in Sec One, he's REALLY fierce and creepy. But he's actually ok, as long as you don't make him angry, I think. But I'm SOOOOOOOOO not gonna try. Had my first ever Chinese class. But Zheng Lao Shi (the CL teacher) is a bit naggy so we haven't really started on the lessons yet. And I got appointed(or should I say sabo-ed) as the Chinese rep for my class' for CL lessons. Had literature and watched a creepy video. Ok, I wouldn't say creepy as in horror movie kinda thing, but hm.....yeah, gory!!!!No, not bloody and gory but...ok, let's just say I got shocked out of my own skin due to trauma of something non-horror. Oh and my Lit. teacher Mr Frith is super nice!!!!!
Had music. We're learning classical guitar this year!!!!!Yayy!!!!
After school, went out with Ame, Pam & Joce for lunch at some cheap Jap food place. I had tempura ramen and what can I say? It was ROCKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!! Although I can't say the same for Pam, Ame & Joce's soba which according to them "tastes horrible".
But we had fun though, hangin out together. We're gonna do this on each of our birthdays!!!!
Wednesday-Friday
School on Wednesday was quite boring. During band however, we watched "The Sound of Music". But we didn't finish it due to the lack of time. :'(
School was quite boring on Thursday too. But during band, they introduced this new game we were gonna use to band called "Angels and Mortals". Yeah, so that's about it.
Had assembly today. So yeah. School was quite boring. Oh , and I had piano lesson. I didn't really practice much during holidays so I think I might have raised my piano teacher's blood pressure?
I've ALWAYS wanted to turn 13 & go to secondary school. It was my dream since I was what, 11?So when my wish came true, I was elated. But it turned out to be much more than what I expected. At some point of the journey, it felt too much for me to handle.
I went into Cedar, ready to start afresh. Study harder, and all that. But I guess cos of my PSLE score, I took things a little too much for granted. I couldn't adapt to having band 3 days a week and such long hours. I became a loner and I cried myself to sleep almost every night cos I couldn't find friends.
Obviously, I've adapted to having a smaller circle of friends and I've got good friends like Pam, Joce & Ame. Thank goodness for them. They're GREAT friends. I couldn't get used to the heavy workload but it's alright now.
I grew closer with my BFFs and made even MORE BFFs in church like Cassia?Bonded with more people like Charis & Sam & I knew more "older people"(CMs). Haha.
Nevertheless, 2009 was the year that I cried out of sadness the most, drew closer to God, and done so much things that I've never done before. It was great and I loved it.
This year, I'm gonna start afresh. I'll try to be better, not commit the same mistakes, be a better sister, draw closer to God and fully adapt to school life and stop complaining about the long hours of my CCA. I'll try and be a junior leader if possible or maybe a PSL. I'm gonna try more things that I've never done. This year is gonna be different. Although I probably won't get used to saying, "I'm fourteen," so soon, I'll learn to love it, I guess.
AS OF TODAY, MY BLOGSHOP HAS MOVED!!!!!!!!! It is now located at http://www.sweethotcool.blogspot.com/!!!!! Do go there!!!!! I have added new stuff on!!!!:D:D:D
I don't wanna split up. I mean, POG seems like a GREAT cell, but it's not TWISTERS. And that's why I don't wanna split cells. But we aren't meeting up as TWISTERS until the chalet, which I'm not going for. Why do good things have to end so soon? It's just like graduation, but it seems worse.
And now, Ame's pissing me off.(No offence, but I really am getting pissed.)She's talking about homework. School's gonna start so soon. I wish it was Gongshang, not Cedar. I miss Gongshang, and our class hasn't had any gatherings for quite a while. That chalet Mr Zul said he was gonna book? He went overseas so nothing has happened so far. If our class has had this little gatherings this year, what about the next and the next? We're gonna have more and more exams, lesser and lesser time. I went Pearl's house maybe a month or two ago, but it wasn't like the past. It was different. We had like little to talk about, and I kinda got bored.
Friends come and go
It doesn't matter if you let go
Cos everything will come to an end
Some are going to
Some are already ending
Some have already ended
I want to join CAMY. I've ALWAYS wanted to join CAMY. But, I'm not even given the chance to go to the auditions. Why? My parents, one of the biggest obstacles in life one will always have. I'm gonna be in the Dance ministry next year. And thus, they think I won't be able to cope. Cope? That's one of the things I've been doing my entire life. I've been coping with secondary school life, my blogshop, CCA and lots more stuff. Can't they see that I love to sing and dance? They've only known that I've love to dance since I was what, 5? They probably didn't know I loved to sing till I got through the auditions for Children's Choir.
And now? They don't let me join CAMY. I wanna be a vocalist in CAMY. I want to sing. I want to sing for God. They say they want me to have my own say in making my decision. But they keep asking, are you sure? Can you cope? It doesn't take a fool to know who's making the final decision here.
And one of their tools they use to prevent us from joining anything, is friends. "Is Elizabeth gonna be going for the auditions?"(Liz is gonna be in dance as well next year). She's not going cos she's not interested, but I'M interested. yes, Liz is my friend, but is there some unwritten law that when your friend joins the same activity as you, you follow them and you can't have anything extra?
Each of us are ourselves. NO ONE is 100% like us. We have differences and similarities. It's not my fault that I love both singing and dancing right? I can't help it. It's like in my blood(although surprisingly, none of the older generations love it as much as me. Sometimes I wonder if I'm adopted.).
But do they have to crash my dreams? Do they have to object me going for just the audition before really making a decision?Do they have to do all that? Why can't I have my dreams fufilled for once, be able to have my say, to be able to make decisions without having them to intervene?
Day 1
Deborah's dad brought us to Rhema. We reached there like extremely early so I just stoned. Cheryl, Heather, Anne, Jess & the others FINALLY came. So yeah, we had service in the morning. Our guest speaker this year was Pastor Brian. Oh oh!!!!! Our emcees this year were Abby & Victoria. They were SOOOOOOOO cute as emcees!!!Haha.
After morning service, went for the worshop: sing a New Song Unto the Lord. It was led by Bro. Leon
There's Hanis and Hariz, the brother & sister that always cry!!!! Yi Xuan, Joyce that are just SOOO cute!!! Tommy, the one that always "clings" to Rachel. Haha. Ikzat & Ignatio, the 2 SUPER cute brothers. Iffa Nabilah, the youngest one that always cries when separated from her mum.
I love these kids SOOOOOOOO much!!!
Today, Nithya was taking pictures for her ILead project. I'll get 1 point!!!Haha. Next year, I'll plan MY ILead project. Haha.
Anywayz, I've got LOTS to do, see ya!!!
I should have known from the start of the email when they started talking about how "it takes courage...blah blah blah blah" that I was out. Instead I had to read on to "we regret to inform you that your audition was unsuccessful".
Why did I have to get my hopes high? WHY?!!!And now they've just come crashing down on me. I really should stop believing in myself. I should have a long long time ago. When I already failed my first test, I should have stopped believing.